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I tweeted about this earlier but I feel like it's better suited for a long format.
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Last weekend was my birthday! It was snowing, which was horrible, but I met up with some friends and had yakiniku and a flight of whiskeys and Doodler made me an amazing chocolate-raspberry cake, and that was all great.
I also got a raise at work effective May 15th, which is helpful.

Last week I had the first session (out of three) on my side tattoo and I am loving it so far. I'm covering up the cursive "forever for never" I had tattooed on my ribs (in that like, under the bra band position, before top surgery) that I got as my first tattoo as a tribute to Yu Yu Hakusho with a picture of Puu from Yu Yu Hakusho and also an Arcanine drawn in like Japanese tattoo style (replacing a shitty fandom tattoo with a better fandom tattoo). I'm very excited about how it's turning out. The next two sessions are going to be finishing up the lines on Arcanine, and doing color. This hurt way more than I remember my chest piece did. Of course it's also along my whole side/ribs down to my hip. So that's probably why. Oof.
(Side note, I had brunch with 2 work friends today and we went with one to get her nose pierced, and if I weren't in the middle of paying for this massive tattoo I would have been tempted to get my septum pierced. Except I'd mostly have to keep it flipped up, I'd think, so I'm not sure there would be a point?)

We are no closer on the condo front than we were the last time I wrote an update. After like 2 weeks of negotiating back and forth I thought we were going to be able to meet in the middle between our two numbers - but it doesn't look like it after all. So, back to searching.

Hmm... what else is new?
After like very aggressively not thinking about testosterone for months I read an article about someone's experience with low dose T and now I can't stop thinking about it. I know one of my friends/acquaintances started the gel fairly recently and I should really ask them how that is going. I don't know, it scares me a bit if I'm being honest with myself. I feel like I'm "okay enough" in my current physical embodiment - but there's got to be some reason I keep being drawn to T (and the person in the article looked so cute and happy and other transmasc people I know look cute and happy and handsome and all that) and I wouldn't know unless I tried it, at this point. My biggest fear is that I do like the effects and then Something Happens (politics? insurance? money? work stuff?) and I can't take hormones anymore and I feel worse than I started. idk.

Fandom stuff:
Billions (Showtime show) has been doing a plotline with Taylor, a nonbinary character, and giving them a fraught relationship with their dad, who they had appear for several episodes. And he clearly just wants to use them for their wealth and success so that he can be successful and doesn't actually care about them as a person beyond the image of them as a person who should do things for him because Family and. yeah this shit is not making me feel good. Other things that don't feel good: this is the only show that both my dad and I follow. And last time he asked what I thought of this current season, he misgendered the canonically nonbinary character who uses and has always used they pronouns. And now this last arc has ended with Taylor's father yelling that they're a cold-hearted person (which like they def can be, everyone in Billions is fucked up) after they went out on a limb for him and was excited about having their family back in their life again, and i definitely have no fucked up feelings about this at all, of course not.

I got all caught up on Golden Kamuy, reading the EH scans. I haven't decide if I still want to read the English volumes as they come out or not. But I lent my coworker-friend the first 4 volumes so if she gets into it and reads those that's good incentive to keep buying it. Doodler will probably buy the whole series in Japanese though. My sister is doing the same thing - she's all caught up through the current volume but not whatever chapters have come out after that. Curse these people with morals who won't read scanlations, I have no one to yell with irl. So I came back to Twitter to yell on there.
I have 2 different ebooks that I finally got from holds I placed weeks ago from the library but i just keep reading the same fanfics over again instead! Also if anyone else has read tender prey it is the only Sugimoto/Ogata fic to make sense to me so far and I'm losing my mind over it k thanks bye.

Hi friends!

The constant engagement of Twitter and Facebook was really making my anxiety spike, and deleting Facebook off my phone really helped with that, so I’m going to try to take a similar break from Twitter.  But I really don’t want to lose touch with you internet friends, so I want to post some updates here. 
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Fandom updates:
I am REALLY behind in The Arcana game. Like now that the main routes are ending I’m even more resistant to catch up. Which is silly!
i also started Golden Kamuy and am still through Volume 8, and at the 1st episode of the anime. I’LL GET THERE 

Prompt:
Kinjou Shingo/Arakita Yasutomo (Yowamushi Pedal)
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Remember when Kinjou got so sick of only eating scrambled eggs when he visited that he took it upon himself to teach Arakita how to cook Literally Anything Else?

Fill for this prompt, "remember when Ashikiba asked if she could press her fingers against Teshima's throat while he sang? remember how much she liked feeling the vibrations of his voice?"